Gays and the Father Heart of God

(Psa 139:13, 14) For You formed my inward parts; You covered me in my mother's womb. I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Marvelous are Your works, And that my soul knows very well.

(Psa 139:15,16) My frame was not hidden from You, When I was made in secret, And skillfully wrought in the lowest parts of the earth. Your eyes saw my substance, being yet unformed. And in Your book they all were written, The days fashioned for me, When as yet there were none of them.

(Psa 139:17,18) How precious also are Your thoughts to me, O God! How great is the sum of them! If I should count them, they would be more in number than the sand; When I awake, I am still with You.

22 May 2006, SINGAPORE, the traditional Gay bashing season started with the New Paper article "ONCE INSIDE, WE DROP OUR TOWELS" highlighted the case of a guy infected with AIDS apparently at one of the saunas at City Hall. The article incorrectly linked the high incidence of AIDS amongst the Gay community to these bath houses rather than society' failure to accept and legitimize their same sex relationships. The bath houses serves as an avenue for "safe sex" in a controlled and "safe" environment. Sex will occur with or without these premises. Written sensationality, the article fails to provide a balanced report by completely ignoring the "massage" premises patronised by straight men. Such establishments are far more numerous in numbers even encompassing the entire city of Geylang and many major shopping centres at Chinatown, Little India, Joo Chiat and Jalan Sultan.

For the GLBT community, we have been rejected by religion, society, friends and family. It is the rejection of those closest to us that hurts us most, our family, in particular our fathers. For the GLBT person, his/her coming out is also a coming out for our families. They do need to manage the views of relatives as a result of our coming out. Many Gays have been rejected by their fathers, shamed, condemned, and hurt deeply, The Father figure was meant to be the representative of God the Father in our lives as we grew up. When our father on earth reject us as who we are, we too felt rejected by God.

In Isaiah 40;3, there is a voice crying out in the wilderness, not a voice of thunder, but a still voice, as of a lover wooing his bride, of John the Baptist declaring the coming of the Messiah, of the Holy Spirit declaring the new move of God in the 21st century that God does not judge us according to our sexual orientation but our faith in Christ Jesus. Isaiah called us to make the way straight in the desert, a highway to God based on this truth that God loves all regardless of their race and sexual orientation. It is a call to GLBTs who has been suffering the desert of oppression and homophobia to come to God, to come to the highway of righteousness that is Jesus Christ, a road in the desert a straight road that leads directly to God and not distorted by the incorrect theology we have on sexuality.

(Isa 40:3 NKJV) The voice of one crying in the wilderness: "Prepare the way of the LORD; Make straight in the desert A highway for our God.

As part of this message of grace, it is the message from the father heart of God, to declare that He created Gays wonderfully irrespective of what society, our family and religious leaders may say. Ultimately, it is the word of God that counts, and not what say. It is a Word of love, a word of acceptance, a word declaring that from our womb, God made us wonderfully as gays, even though this is hidden from sight. By faith, God fashioned the days before us, the purpose of creating us as gays for a blessing and not a curse, and wrote them in a plan that it may come to pass and we be blessed.

The New paper articles in Singapore on the gay saunas, again reminds us of the deep seated homophobia of society. On the contrary, the thoughts that God towards gays are wonderful and precious. The thoughts of God of goodness for gays are continuous and numerous, too many to be counted. When we see the wave of condemnation against gays, it does not matter for God sees us wonderfully and it is His thoughts that matters and not the thinking nor views of man. We should care less on the views of man and instead care more on the views of God.

As gays in order to receive of God’s love and thoughts for us, we must not dwell on the opinions that man has hold us not be too concerned with them. Many gays have been deeply hurt, and extremely bitter. The rejection of their fathers of their sexuality have caused much harm in their lives. Because of the love and acceptance which has been withheld in their lives, they could not love themselves and are unnaturally concerned about how others view them. Gays have problems loving themselves and accepting themselves. The message today is that God accepts you totally, and I mean completely and ultimately that is all that matters.

The anxiety for gays concerning acceptance, is relayed in their sexual relationships. Always conscious of rejection, gays can be controlling and manipulative, always concerned that their partner will reject and leave them. This concern which is in many cases, a delusion, can come a reality as we believe in it and inadvertently made it happened. Therefore, to have a good relationship, our relationship must be founded on acceptance by god from above. Without this acceptance, we will be too overly demanding of our partner what has been absent from out father on earth and our wrong impression of our Father in heaven.

We pray to a Father God and not a mother God, because a Father figure speaks of protection and acceptance, a covering of love and many hugs. Without this father figure in many lives of gays, we are deeply hurt and exposed in the deepest and sensitive part of our souls, We have been violated deep inside our spirit and soul as the hand of our earthly father was not there to protect us from the oppression, ridicule, jokes, because we are gays. Gays are deeply injured, deep in their spirit and soul. There is a great need for healing, supernatural healing in the hearts of many gay men. We need to forgive our earthly father, not that we condone their behavior but we release judgment to God. Forgiveness is only the start, for Gays need a special ministry that they many received deeply God’s reconstruction work in their lives, by the constant affirmation that He has created them wonderfully and He will protect them, the deepest and most fragile parts of their spirit and soul when their dads have neglected their duty.

We need the power of the Holy Spirit, for it is only by the power of God that deep healing come. However, gays have such a bad experience with the church that they would not enter nor consider things of God. Sadly, we need to pray like never before, for inner healing that only the Spirit can work. We are naturally minded and are often uncomfortable with the baptism of the Holy Spirit and the baptism of tongues. But gays are so deeply wounded that artificial prayers is not sufficient. We need to be completely filled by the Holy Spirit to be totally immersed every part of the body that God may minister deeply to those areas so hurting but unseen. We have denied the baptism of the Holy Spirit when we so desperately need it. We are so hurt that such thoughts are hidden deep within our spirit. We need to pray in tongues, to pray into areas that we could not comprehend nor pray in the wisdom of human words, to pray with supernatural understanding and power.

In summary, gays need to continually affirm that God loves them and created them wonderful and His thoughts are wonderful and good for them. That is all that matters and not the views of society, their friends or family. For deep inner healing of the sordid past, let us continually be in the spirit fervently praying in tongues that the power of healing through the Holy Spirit may minister deeply in our lives. It may take a lifetime of prayer, but pray we must like never before. There is a straight road in the desert, a desert filled with much pain for gays, pain that reaches to the very depths of their soul. It is a straight road above their desert of their pain, and suffering that no one sees nor understand, a road leading to God where they will be healed and again find acceptance through Christ Jesus again and to return home.

Lord Jesus Christ, I love you and thank you that you created me wonderfully and beautifully. You saw me from my mothers womb and knitted me as a gay person and saw this as a blessing for the rest of my live. But my family and friends have not understood and I am deeply hurt in the depths of my soul so deep and hidden through layers of protection, that I could not reach lest by your Spirit. Spirit of God, heal me, fill me, fill every part of me, to the depths of my soul and spirit. Filled me over and over again as I cry out to you. Engulfed me with the love that I so missed from my father on earth. Father God be my Father in heaven that I may cry and weep to for the wasted and broken years of my life that I have been neglected and left to fend for my self.

Lord I come to You
Let my heart be changed, renewed
Flowing from the grace
That I've found in You
And Lord I've come to know
The weaknesses I see in me
Will be stripped away
By the power of Your love

Hold me close
Let Your love surround me
Bring me near
Draw me to Your side
And as I wait
I'll rise up like the eagle
And I will soar with You
Your spirit leads me on
In the Power of Your love

Lord unveil my eyes
Let me see You face to face
The knowledge of Your love
As you live in me
And Lord renew my mind
As Your will unfolds in my life
In living every day
By the Power of Your love